When Apathy Steals Your Joy and How to Fight Back - iBelieve Truth: A Devotional for Women - February 19, 2026
iBelieve Truth: A Devotional for Women
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By Vivian Bricker, Crosswalk.com
“Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil” (Ephesians 5:15-16).
For a while now I have been struggling with apathy. While I’m not sure if this is due to my depression or just generally being burned out, it has affected my life in many ways. I no longer find anything as exciting or fun, and I don’t look forward to the days to come. This is partly due to being depressed and partly due to struggling with chronic illnesses. My life has become weekly doctor appointments, consultations, and talks of surgery.
While I see everyone around me “living the dream,” I’m living a nightmare. Having an autoimmune disease is something I wish no one had to go through. Ever since I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, my life has become smaller and smaller. Without a doubt, doctor visits could take up my entire week. While I wish this wasn’t my reality, it is something I still have to cope with each day.
I think my sister was the first person to notice my apathy because she noticed I was not as talkative as normal one day. Normally I would update her when I was driving, but at some point, I stopped talking. I didn’t feel there was a point to talk because nothing mattered.
Now, I think this mentality is something that has been festering in me for a while now. Due to never being seen as interesting and being bullied by “friends,” I have often just wanted to give up on life. Nothing is going in my favor, so why even try? I don’t want to leave my room, much less do anything else.
Apathy has the capacity to completely take us over. Whenever I see something happening, I automatically think, “not my problem.” I believe this comes from nobody helping me when I was in need of support. Due to the hatred and bitterness of others, I became apathetic to everything around me. While I cannot say I’m on the other side of this situation, I have been going to God and asking for His healing.
Ultimately, I’m apathetic because nobody has cared for so long. I’ve been told by trusted individuals that I’m not good enough, I’ll never make it in life, and that I’m a failure. These comments will never fully heal, but I know God can help the pain lighten. I fear that I will carry around these wounds for the rest of my life, however, I trust God will make it less severe.
The Apostle Paul tells us, “Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil” (Ephesians 5:15-16). As Paul says here, we need to be careful how we live. We don’t need to live unwisely, but rather, we need to live wisely and make the most of every opportunity. If we have a heart of apathy, how are we going to do this? Every day will just be a matter of making it through rather than making a difference.
While I would like to give you some sort of spiritual revelation when it comes to apathy, I cannot. I believe God has given us doctors, therapists, and medicine to help us when we are struggling. Sometimes just trying to make changes in our own life is not enough. We need professionals to help us and support us on our healing journey. God has provided these individuals and resources into our life for a reason, and we would be wise to take hold of them.
If we continue to be apathetic and indifferent to life and the cause of Christ, we will not be faithful followers of Jesus. This is what makes me want to reach out for support and experience the healing that I need. Although apathy can feel like a type of armor, it is actually just weighing us down. Jesus can help us heal, and He will provide the necessary resources that we need.
“Dear Jesus, apathy has hit me hard. Due to my own life circumstances, I don’t feel very optimistic about life. I don’t want to do anything anymore. I feel everyone else is getting everything they could ever want while I don’t even have what I need. Please change my heart from a state of apathy to a state of interest, intention, and purpose. I trust You to bring me the healing that I need. I give You all the praise and glory, Lord. Continue to surround me with Your grace. Amen.”
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Vivian Bricker obtained a Bachelor of Arts in Ministry, followed by a Master of Arts with an emphasis in theology. She loves all things theology, mission work, and helping others learn about Jesus. Find more of her content at Cultivate.
Related Resource: I Am the Way, the Truth, and the Life | Midweek Prayer (John 14:1–6)
When our hearts feel troubled, Jesus invites us to trust Him again.
This short midweek prayer creates space to pause, breathe deeply, and return to Jesus’s words in John 14:1–6, where He says, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” In this guided prayer, we acknowledge the places where worry, uncertainty, or longing have unsettled our hearts and bring them honestly before God.
Jesus reminds us that we are not alone—that He is with us, that He is preparing a place for us, and that He will return for us. As we pray, we ask for help to trust Him more deeply and to follow Him in the way He has already made clear: to love God fully and to love our neighbors as ourselves.
Take a few quiet minutes to slow down, listen for God’s invitation, and rest in the presence of the One who leads us in truth and life. If you like what you hear, follow So Much More on Apple or Spotify so you never miss an episode!
